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Sat, Aug. 16th, 2014, 04:51 pm

It is better to be intentionally on your own than to be alone
in a crowd of those that you know.

Thu, Aug. 14th, 2014, 08:59 am
Happy Moments

Todays moment of happiness is brought to you by:

8-14-14 6:13pm
By chance catchingThe Wiz playing on HBO Family at the very start as I'm cleaning - super yea - why have I not bought this yet (to do list for 2014)

8-14-14 8:59am
Disney's Beauty and the Beast sound track - Be Our Guest

Wed, Aug. 13th, 2014, 05:29 pm
frustration at the movie

Today I am going to the movies alone.

This is not unusual and in fact often planned and welcomed...except when it is not.

Sometimes I have a general dislike of everyone.

It is not that anyone has done anything at all, no one has.

Being alone is great except when you dont want to be alone and when attempts to invite others in fail...there are not a lot of words to explain it even when it is a situation of no fault at all.

Wed, Aug. 13th, 2014, 12:41 am
Elder Parent Experience

Dad had his pcp follow up last week.
Today dad had his urology follow up.
He has been functioning well after the surgery, the pcp reduced some of his meds so he is feeling better but still slow, napping a lot but goes out for short walks a few times a day.

Today I returned home after work and asked how his urolorist follow up appointment went to which he casually responded 'oh it was fine, they want to do a routine bone scan thats all.'

...ok see maybe part of the reason my parents get along so well is because they are opposites. Where mom tends to be expressive dad tends to be understated. Lets think this off handed statement through shall we. They want to do a "routine bone scan"...routine for what for whom?

Me - "Dad...?"
Dad - "yea?"
. . . .
Mom - "yes were going to have to be praying about this thing."
Me - "Dad? What are they scanning for?"
Dad - "well to see what else might be going on, see if theres cancer or anything but they've not done anything yet to be concerned about" Said in the most casual laid back way.

Test is Mon results are Thursday.

Stay calm - Pray and dont panic - panic will get you no where anyway.

404.327 - is the random number of 2014.

Thu, Aug. 7th, 2014, 07:40 am

Yesterday was great.
Work - one of my least favorite clients followed by one of my favorites :)

Family - took mom to the store and the nail shop while I went to 1/2 price book store (picked up sound tracks to Grease and Beauty and the Beat) and cleaned my car.

Friends - went out with T & K and their show friends after the clippper show to the Sheraton then Bar Louie. I drank water and a shirly temple then slept like a baby lol - sweet.

Wed, Aug. 6th, 2014, 12:42 am
more wtf

I was looking forward to the outing this evening.
I left early.

Texas contacted me yesterday - I did not respond.

Co-worker B gives me consent for lots of stuff - but is not yet able to jump into the deep end.

Married friend is a good friend, helpful, wonderful energy and to keep him that way - I excused myself and came home early.

The single guy I went out with twice declined to come out to socialize with the group - also declined the movie - but wants to meet for some individual time... :|

The "safe" snugglie open friend - is, well open....


Sun, Aug. 3rd, 2014, 10:43 am

Glorious Breakfast:

Watching the thunder storm from my car while eating 2 organic apricots.

What a wonderful morning to have gone early to the co-op.

Side note, I have never eaten a fresh apricot (like an apple) before, a habit must be made of this :).

Sat, Aug. 2nd, 2014, 11:11 pm
Weight -Elder Parent Experience - Forward Progression

- Food - did pretty good this week, small meals, not hungry, ate early.

- Money - saved more than I spent.

- Parents - slow but pressing forward together.
The house is so silent because they are sleeping a lot. Dad still recovering from the surgery and mom from dialysis last night.

- Very little sleep last night maybe tonight will be better.

- Texas - :(

- Just watched "My 600lb Life" ... wtf

Fri, Aug. 1st, 2014, 10:11 am

A slight bit of emotional nausea seems to be my me normal.
- Are/Will the parents be ok
- What have I accomplished in my life (never thought I would be asking that question).
- My place of work is being sold how will that all work out?
- My health...:|
- School and a new career
- Considering taking aothers look at my former career
-How many more major changes can I make in a year?
- Whatever happened to me singing?
- Need to publish the dang books
- Need to complete other books and projects.
- ug

Wed, Jul. 30th, 2014, 10:48 pm
parents and forward progression.

"Welcome to your new day. Wed July 30,2014 is going to have more good than bad and more productive than wasted time. Amen :)"

This is the text that I sent Texas this morning and indeed it was a good day.
Dad came home (my cousin picked him up). I worked 9-4 = 6 sessions. Went food shopping then picked up dads new meds and then put away the laundry on their bed. I also called about the house that is being renovated across the street (750 + utilities for both the 2nd and 3rd fl apts), a little much for the area I think amd it is a walk up.

I am happy to have dad home and on the mend.
I am excited about looking for a place.
My stomach...spirit is still a bit uneasy in general, not are why.
Staying close to home this weekend but may catch a movie "Get On Up!" :)
We shall see.

I'm so glad that live journal does not toss out dorment profiles. I was always coming back, just took longer than I thought to return.

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