I sat watching the couples laughing and twirling on the floor with smooth steps. A slight bit of anxiety poked at me as the ongoing thought that this 'dance, is really a trust excercise'...not something Im good at. I recall the dance lessone that I had woth Nathan years ago and the internal work it took for me not to look behind us and to Trust that he was not going to run meus into a wall.
I desire to be back within his dance frame again. There was trust built that I did not know could happen. He teaches at this place but not swing, another guy and girl do.
By the end of the 45/50min class I was in good condition but ready to escape. I staues for 10more min and danced was asked to dance by two other fellows then my system needed rest so I had to go. It was fun and I look forward to the next class.
Its weird how the platonic touch if dance, the trust of it the sensuality of it causes my anxiety alarms to go off. Figuring out what thats all about is on my list for the year and this was day 1.