demureserenity

WAMO (previously FM 106.7 now FM 106.1) was sold 2 years ago ending a decades long tradition of hip-hop, R&B, gospel and jazz. In May 2011 a new WAMO returned to the airwaves via Tim Martz with Martz Communications who purchased station WPYT AM and FM in Wilkinsburg deciding to fill the void for urban music.

I have to say that I have missed having an urban music station.
Coming up I thought that I would be listening to WAMO until the day I died.
In actuality I stopped listening when I was in 12th grade deciding to clean my brain of the crap lyrics that sadly tend to run rampant in pop music.

However I have to say that there is something about the groove of R&B of Hip Hop music.
Something about the beat, something about the move that cannot be duplicated or substituted.
The tenor of the voices, the way it makes you feel laid back and simultaneously want to dance.

In truth I still can't take most of the lyrics and as such listen rarely but every now and then there is something about a little LL, a little hard driving R&B beat that just makes me happy.

How odd.

Today I received an ecard from a ghost.

It is a woman with whom I use to be very good friends.

A few years ago she discontinued our friendship.

The reality is that she moved out of state for school and over time, though in the past distance did not weaken our friendship, distance plus a gradual change in interest, life and spiritual focus our friendship grew apart.

It was clear what was happening long before it materialized, however I figured that our friendship would morph into a continually very friendly but no longer intensely personal due to emotional/physical distance, seeing each other on the holiday's/a few times a year kind of thing, and I was ok with that.

The last time we actually laid eyes on each other we ended up falling asleep out of boredom and not talking much at all.

The real issue is that over time the things that I was excited about and wanted to discuss she did not and vice verse.

Our last interaction was her emailing me information on a topic, though essential, of which I did not want to discuss and we had previously agreed to not dwell on.

At that point I let the relationship drop as did she and there were no more conversations.

Now several years later I have received an ecard from her.

She has been on my mind on and off the last few years and each time I have prayed for her and let go and let God.

I hit the reply button which I suppose sent her a message that her ecard was received.

Though I do not expect to hear from her again we shall see what doors God opens and which ones he leaves closed.

2011 has been a good year.

I have gained/maintained more that I have lost.

I have regained my passion for reading.

I have come even more to terms with my finances and have learned the basics of investing.

I have gained a friend and separated from a few.

I have down scaled in physical belongings and increased in spiritual and emotional growth.

Though I continue to seek to do better I Thank You Lord God for what I have.

Amen

Some relationships are only meant for a season.

This year my season has ended for two of them.

Though somewhat expected the reality is no less sad.

Ah well, it is what it is.

Live On In Peace my dear former friends.

10 * 12-8-11 - "Quiet Strength" Tony Dungy (Good Read)


9 * 11-30-11 - 'Shattering Your Strongholds - Freedom From Your Struggles' by Liberty S. Savard (Excellent Read - will change the way you pray!)



8 * 11-19-11 - 'How I Made $2,000,000.00 In The Stock Market' by Nicolas Darvas (like)



7 * 10-31-11 - 'Sister Citizen' by Melissa V. Harris-Perry (dislike - a bit too negative over all for me)


6 * 10-26-11 - 'Who's Afraid Of Post-Blackness? What It Means To Be Black Now' by Toure'
(Must Buy! Interesting, gives a different out look on race in America)


5 * 10-11-11- 'The Complete Idiot's Guide To Grant Writing 2nd ed' Waddy Thompson
(Very Informative)



4 * 07/11 - 'What's Race Got to Do with It? : Why It's Time to Stop the Stupidest Argument in America' (2009), ISBN 0-312-54147-3[21] originally titled Stupid Black Men: How to Play the Race Card—and Lose, ISBN 0-312-36733-3.[22] * by Larry Elder
(good points but to angry & repetitive for me)


3 * 05/11 - Nice Girls Don't Get The Corner Office 101 Unconscious Mistakes Women Make That Sabotage Their Careers * by Lois P. Frankel, Phd. D. (interesting and helpful)



2 * 02/11 - Make the Impossible Possible: One Man's Crusade to Inspire Others to Dream Bigger and Achieve the Extraordinary * by Bill Strickland, (Must Read - Inspirational)



1 * 01/11 - The Smart Cookies' Guide to Making More Dough: How Five Young Women Got Smart, Formed a Money Group, and Took Control of Their Finances * By - The Smart Cookies and Jennifer Barrett (Good read, interesting and helpful)

It's not that I am weary of well doing.

It is more that I am weary of continually explaining what is common sense, clearly written and already explained.

The Bible is clear on so many issues particularly morality - accept it.

Disliking, disagreeing with it, labeling as unrealistic, trying to redefine or squirm around it does not change it.

For those who choose a Christian life the Bible is ... The Bible.

No were not expected to be perfect but to daily build our Relationship w/Jesus Christ via prayer and Bible study.

No it's not easy. Yes were our worse enemy.

Yes the way is narrow and you may loose a few friends along the way.

Yes the road and your ultimate relationship with Christ is well worth the work.

That horrid number on the scale - your right way to much for a 10yr old - BUT - just maintain - it will look Awesome when your 16!

I miss him

I miss his calls in the morning

. . . and his control at night

No, I don't want him back

No, I will not call

But yes, of all the things that keep crossing my mind is the ring of his chime - sigh . . .

Alright, on with life

"Acting is largely about putting on masks, and music is about removing them." Hugh Laurie

http://www.wnyc.org/npr_articles/2011/sep/02/hugh-lauries-new-orleans-romp-by-way-of-oxford/

This is something that I am just now learning.

Discussion to follow.

I sang at open mic last night - it went ok - "Oh My Man" (I love him so) did well but "My Funny Valintine" I asked the band to play the beat and that did not go as planned - ehh. ah well.